Where's the bloody sun!

Where?

Where?

Happy March, white rabbits and all that!

Here comes the sun, I hope? Praying to the gods of sunshine, what can I do to bribe them?

I'm withering here gawd damn it!

We've had just a few exciting minutes, of the yellow ball in the sky lately, just enough to know without a doubt that without sun we are just unstable! We neeeed....the golden glow!

Yesterday, was absolutely glorious! Sun, blue skies and double and a half digits! The perfect reminder with the promise of what's to come! Today? I'm going to light the fire early and pop on an extra jumper!!!!

Enough of grey moody skies, buckets of rain and unreasonable temperatures, thank you very much!

We are just wilting sunflowers waiting to turn towards the sun! I wondered why I felt so at home in the Charente!

So, we rebooted the house hunt after the Norfolk farce. I was reticent, he made the call and I'm glad he did in the end. I think the universe put us back on the right track. Yes it will cost a little more than we wanted to pay, but we get so much more than rural isolation this time. However, there's no work to do other than plonking our belongings and maybe ordering a little more furniture? Much better than what we have here right now! With hind sight, they really saw us coming!

Hopefully French and Bloom can get going with gusto! I'm so ready for it!

It would also be so nice to have a clean, warm, functional house. Wish us luck?

Anyway, as soon as we've signed the deal (cross fingers and all that) it will be all go but as I'm away then he's away, it will still be a bit of a moving muddle right on top of our wedding anniversary! I'm prepared for a few busy, exhausting weeks and then to find a moment to celebrate.

Still, I do think we need a little camper van again and the autonomy to travel when we have the time. That will be just what the doctor ordered.

Always celebrate those special milestones folks even if the date has been and gone! These times are important and you never get them back eh! Don't sit there waiting because that clock never really stops ticking!

So as I said, we've started the process of applying for the new house and to be honest it gives me quite a lot of anxiety! Mainly because it's not real humans referencing us! These apps are a real pain, especially when self employed and although we didn't fail referencing last time, we got stuck, because of the long wait for the accountant to do his thing! The then impatient future Landlord pulled out, not that the agent was much help either! The accountant finally did his thing yesterday afternoon, so now we wait.

I think what's funny about our choice of future home, is that it is similar to how the French house could have been once completely finished! It also has the same front street presence!

I know!

I do wonder if the fact the village has a pub tipped the balance? It certainly did for him!

Hehe!

I guess time will tell eh?

So this time we might get community, pretty much a little bit of everything we love and no trustees or Lords of the realm involved! Hopefully all the paperwork will be done next week and then we can look forward to moving mid April. We are so ready!

If not? I guess we just need to wait another 4 months, until our first year trading is done. It won't be too terrible if the weather get better here! Sometimes we just have to go with flow and whatever that looks like?

Once moved, I think we will both relieved, we can get back to business, start living a more normal life, make new friends and get involved in whats going on locally. H will be chuffed at the 1 hour train ride from London!

We feel very brave after the French farce which has suddenly restarted in the last few days with the veritable thief telling her special brand of mistruth lol! The tenant moving out of her house alerted us to the fact she's taking back possession and we needed to get our last few bits out the barn before he left. Nice of him, as he and his family have certainly been put through it living there. No one warned him or us about this woman, I wish they had!

So we got it moved and we put the shit that she dumped in our hallway back in her barn. There's the truth eh! Now she's claiming we've stolen her stuff which is the funniest thing I've ever heard in my life.........boy oh boy, P and I fell over laughing! I can tell you there's not one thing of hers we would want or need, she's just trying to cause trouble and trouble is her middle name. Honesty! I will thank her for the laugh though. I mean, I still can't get over why she dumped stuff in my hallway when we had the house set up for viewing! When I got wind of issues from an agent, I had the builder go in and take a video and wow, what a mess! Whatever she didn't want before she skipped town, she dumped in my house!

Lovely!

Steal her stuff? Well girls and boys, she has had half of our house belongings and whilst we didn't pay her for sorting our barn sale, she got plenty of stuff for her trouble as agreed and then took even more. I never saw a penny of the last tranche of selling she did! So the 'stealing' was only one sided I believe and I'm pretty sure I know where our heating oil went! We finally got to the camera in the garage and have the evidence! We didn't want to alert anyone to it in case it was interfered with, so we will hold the evidence in abeyance for now. Might even given them the opportunity to put it back or pay for it? It's just who we thought would be, no real surprises there sadly. Thank god we cottoned on early enough to stop any further issues. If any of them ever enter our property again I will have them arrested and hand over the camera footage.

I've never ever known such a big fat liars like she, the demon life stealer and her drug dealing friend are! Awful humans with not one ounce of integrity between them. Good riddance.

It's very rare to find a decent expat in that area, there are many I'm sure but they cleverly keep away from the gang of idiots, that cause havoc to the unsuspecting lives of people like us. I've heard that she has a new monkey going round threatening people. Hilarious. My bad, folks, as my intuition always told me she was rotten inside and out but I was persuaded otherwise.

Anyway enough of her and her band of merry thugs eh!

My advice to her is to start being the person she should be and stop interfering in other peoples lives! Get your own life lady and some therapy eh!

Imagine we are just here living our lives here, minding our own business and she is still hanging about in the shadows still obsessed with us!

Oh and in other news we got the first part of the decision on the first part of the tax 21/23 in France. We seemingly have waited endlessly for what looks very much like a copy and paste job! You couldn't make it up! We will trundle on and start the next part of the process and we will keep appealing until life on Mars is a real possibility!

Also, I had a moment last night and it was quite the personal kick in the solar plexus, a really huge life light bulb moment!

As I get ready to be immersed in floral life, it dawned on me that in 37 years I have only ever been away by myself, for myself for one week! The rest was always about children or me being left behind whilst he did his thing.

I'm unbelievably upset that this has been me to date!

I was quite distraught last night and there's no time like present to change this destructive pattern of behaviour!

Can you believe it? One week! In nearly 4 decades.

I've gone through a range of emotions in the last 24 hours and I'm now just angry!

Why!

I know I had my family at the heart of it all, but its a very selfless act that has cost me dearly! I know I'm not the only one. Us women make too many sacrifices and go beyond in everything we do, but it comes at great cost.

Where did she go?

You can bet folks thats she is well and truly on her way back!

Oh and before I go. I know many of you will be wondering about B? She's well cared for and for once getting everything she needs. The psychiatric ICU unit is amazing and we are well informed. It isn't a sticking plaster aproach for once. I have more confidence than I have in many, many years. I know that her care is ongoing and building. Whats next? I really don't know but what gives me hope is that they aren't rushing the next steps.

Love and gumption!

D x